Yet there was a car accident that they got in,monoe and Madotsuki being the only ones that survived Monoe was very kind to everyone ,polite, basically very older sister type Monoe was a grade above Madotsuki and Monoko was a grade below, yet they were paired in some of the same classes for not being as good at certain subjects (mainly for their autism and disorders they had) Monoko had BPD and was on the autism spectrum and took more classes with Madotsuki than Monoe. The headless effect representing suicidal urges of wishing she was dead tooĪfter Madotsuki was raped she felt like her entire world sorta just, collapsed, she failed grades, started going out less and less, becoming numb to what was happening to her. Those are how she saw her self from families harsh words,and also how Madotsuki wants to view her self and wish she was like That comes in with some of the effects (Like the fat effect)
She would hear her mother/most female family members shittalk her,about how they were never proud of her make fun of her body weight,facial features/how she would smell/ect Madotsuki could possibly have a very transphobic AND homophobic family that grounded her constantly for any little thing she had done. Now you’re probably like “Why family?!?!?!” here’s why B)
I believe the toriningen represent bullies/Madotsuki’s family At one point he even let Madotsuki spend the night in his house during a rough time with her parents. Secom masada represents a music/language teacher Madotsuki had during school,he was very nice yet had a lazy eye and his Japanese sounded more broken. Poniko originally was from america,one of Madotsuki’s first friends in school, she spoke Japanese fluently and alot of the other girls envied her for her beauty Madotsuki even envied her slightly at one point raping her so when Uboa comes out that’s why the backgorund looks like its groping breasts? yeah. I headcannon Uboa represents Poniko’s abusive boyfriend that she once had,tended to speak harshly and mean to Madotsuki.
(leaning towards pansexual panromantic tho) And also autistic I headcanon heavily Madotsuki felt more connected to being a transmale in her dreams….but also felt ? genderfluid idk.Very questioning and confused about gender and sexuality. Madotsuki is dfab genderfluid,questioning gender and sexuality. YES!! THANK THE LORD!! some of these are triggering/long af so they are going undercut yes